Planning and Structuring Ideas for a Risk or Challenge

Have you ever abseiled before well on one bright sunny day on Project K the instructors informed the group that we were going to do abseiling, in that moment I was saying to myself that it’s not that big of a deal. I was basically telling them I have done it before. In my head though I had those thoughts like it will be a piece of cake and eh it’s not that hard and eh it’s not that scary.

Until the instructors explained to the group we were doing down a huge rock wall I was a bit frightened and I was worried than I might end up falling and hurting myself, all that time I was scared straight out of my socks not knowing what to do.

All the fear felt like a huge rock was thrown on top of me and all the anger inside of my body I felt like I wanted to punch someone or something. Then one of the mentors that came with Kat told be to breath in and out  because she said it might make all the fear and anger disappear, and she was absolutely right it went away. Until one pair that came up because they just went said that there is a little bit of rock then about a few meters down it was completely mid-air, suddenly all the fear returned.

Once it was my turn I took all the fear and shoved it down inside me and took all the courage and used it to go down. Once I was clicked on to the rope it felt like I was sitting on a invisible chair that was attached to the rock wall and I was off a cliff. Once I started going down I felt like I could just jump of and fly or teleport but I couldn’t.

Once I was down felt like a whole heap of relief was lifted of my shoulders and I was free but at the same time I actually wanted to go again knowing that I can just shove the fear down and get the courage to try it again I also felt very happy and proud of myself.

In the end I realised that you can do anything If you believe in yourself and you could do anything if you put your mind to it. I have also learned that I can be more than I think and do more than I think.